Boyfriend Thief

by Pam written last 2009-05-06
Pam felt Bad when this was written

Finn and I were the best of friends. We enjoyed doing same things. He loves eating and I cook for him. We talk about our dates and even shared to each other our sleazy secrets.

After our graduation, he went to Illinois to teach in a university while I stayed in Seattle and worked as a wedding planner but we kept in touch. He would visit me in Seattle during summer and I would go there when I don’t have work.

Two years after he left, I met Nathan. He was one of our suppliers. Nathan fitted perfectly into my life that time. I was not dating anyone and he had just finalized his divorce. Nathan was 6 years older than I am but we got along pretty well. Summer of 2007, I arranged for both to meet. The next day after their first meeting, they went out for fishing. I was happy. When Finn returned to Illinois, I thought everything was in order. So in December of 2007, I moved to Nathan’s house.

Four months after, I noticed something peculiar about Nathan. He makes phone calls during the wee hours. I got suspicious so I checked his phone. He constantly calls a person named “Nick.” I asked him about it and he told me “Nick” was a client who was planning for a big wedding. I ofcourse felt ashamed of myself. I called Finn and told him about it. He laughed and told me to just trust Nathan.

Few months later, I received an email from Finn which shook my world. The email was intended for Nathan. He wrote: “Honey, I miss you. Can you come here? I really wanna be with you even just for a couple of days. Love, Nick.” My knees felt wobbly. I threw up, cried, and threw up again. In the many years that I’ve known Finn, never did I suspect he is gay. I also couldn’t believe Nathan betrayed me like this.

When I finally regained my composure, I called Finn. When he heard my voice, he paused for a minute and asked why I called. That moment, I could no longer hold my tears and anger. I was crying and cursing him at the same time. I told him that I read his email for Nathan. Finn was quiet on the other end. Then he said, “I’m sorry if I chose to break your heart just so I can finally be happy. I love Nathan. I’m pretty sure he feels same way for me. I tried to tell you about the relationship but he thought now’s not the right time. I can’t give him up…I’m truly sorry.”

How long has it been since I last spoke with Finn or Nathan? I guess 10 months or so. I left Seattle for good to forget about my past. I hope they are happy now or all the pain and sacrifices will be worth nothing...