First true love.

by sweet written last 2010-11-12
sweet felt Like Crap when this was written

He was my first boyfriend and we've been together for 10 months already since we were in 4th year High School, up to college. We've been in an on and off relationship status. We usually fight. At first I got bored and I feel like I don't love him anymore. So I told him that and said I want to break up with him and everytime I tell him that he always cry and tell me that he don't want me to go. Even if i'm telling him to just grow up and get over it. Then one day I realized I was wrong. And now I'm trying to get him back, but he don't want to anymore. He told me I need to realize what I've done to him. I try to get back with him. Call him everyday, txt him I love him even though he only send me a smiley back. It hurts. And everytime I talk to him he still calls me "baby". And then whenever I ask him if he would still give me another chance he turns it down and tells me, the things that i have done to him still hurts him and he doesn't know if he wants to be with me anymore. But he still txt me and tells me he misses me sometimes which hurts me more and confuse me. Back when whenever we fight or i tell him i want to break up, it only takes a day before my anger towards him goes away. but now that he's mad at me it's been 2 weeks. 2 weeks and i'm trying to get him back. it's 1AM here and I'm still crying. I dropped out college this semester because of him, I don't want to see him at school because it hurts. I want to move on but whenever he text me I can't help not to reply to him. What should I do?