need help w/ this one

by Nymphetamine written last 2010-11-12
Nymphetamine felt Like Crap when this was written

I need your opinion on this one.
Had a non-serious relationship before. Non-serious in the sense that there no commitments. But you see, I've met his parents. Hanged out with his mom. Spent christmas and new year at their house. Times when I felt his concern. I was a rebel and at my worst, I didn't want to fall for anyone that time. I could remember one moment where he asked me if I loved him, and I didn't answer. He turned his back on me and got up and slept on the couch. It was his bed, in his room by the way. Also confronted me when he saw me go out with another guy, I didn't know because he said he was out of town when he was in fact trailing me. Ok. At present, I am in an healthy, peaceful, loving relationship with a man I know I LOVE. We already have a daughter. We're living together. Future plans together. I love him and I know and feel that he loves me and genuinely cares for me. Now, here's the dilemma. My ex keeps popping in my head. Like everyday. And he keeps popping out in my dreams. Like all the time. And I'm like, what the heck. I know I'm over him. Or am i? I bumped into him once and it was ok. I didn't feel any longing, or anything. It was like hey how are you. Nothing much. So my question is, why does he keeps popping out in my head? Why do I keep dreaming about him? I assure you that if I had my way, I would'nt ever do that. Now I feel guilty, because I feel like I'm betraying my partner. Help please